Deserving

August made me think, while the old hold me back and the new barely brought me further in life. I still thought about what I want from people, although I didn’t know what to expect anymore. My heart already felt swollen by the feeling of uncertainty. But I’m no longer thinking about what I don’t have, instead of considering what I own inside. I now notice a love I carry that is yet to be fulfilled, meant to nurture my soul. Although most certainly I know the perception I have surrounding love, that emerged of the experiences other people have made before me, I know I’m deserving of real love. Everyone is.

Choosing Yourself

Sometimes you might perceive an overwhelming amount of thoughts building up in your head. Your mind is absolute chaos, it seems confusing. That’s when you need some time to reflect, which goes a long way. Because it often comes with having to choose a new space, unapologetically choosing yourself first and going at your own pace.

We need new surroundings to discover ourselves, like searching in the ocean for something you can’t find on land.

It can mean, being distant to certain people in your life and having to deal with their reactions to that. And this fear of what could happen, whether it’s loosing those people or feeling even more lost in life, is holding you back. So you may crave change, but you’re too afraid of it. On days, where you feel like the fear is controlling your mind, you should try to focus on what the experience of taking care for yourself can teach you. Think about what you have to gain and see the strength and bravery in taking this choice.

Remember that growth isn’t meant to be comfortable.