I feel alive in the midst of all this knowledge I can’t maintain. All the things the world has to offer are written on these pieces of paper and are yet for me to explore. Literature is infinite. Those words are connected to memories of my past, present and future. I remember a book of mine being the essence of my childhood and the memories connected to it live on as I continue my life.
Category: self care
What if I’m just escaping from one place to another?
Uprooted Pages
Uprooted pages are the scars of a book. they leave a small piece of what once belonged there and let us wonder, what caused her being torn out of home? Whose hand did she take that was dragging her behind? We notice them like scars on one’s tender skin. They fade but never leave and remind us, our body heals what weakens us.
I leave
You let me know I disappointed you, but I don’t feel like saying sorry. It might hurt my sincerity to tell something that I don’t mean. Waiting for a reason to leave wasn’t good for me, but now I found one. Since then, you were left with expectations and nobody was there to comply them.
silent mornings
When the morning comes, the sun releases it’s subtle light and I take a glance outside. My bare feet on the cold kitchen tile are keeping me awake. While I still feel a bit numb, I find comfort in sipping my cup of coffee, the first cup of gold. And before the rush I need a minute to be in touch, not with anybody else, but myself. I think, if I could just keep this peace throughout the day, though I know it won’t stay.
Choosing Yourself
Sometimes you might perceive an overwhelming amount of thoughts building up in your head. Your mind is absolute chaos, it seems confusing. That’s when you need some time to reflect, which goes a long way. Because it often comes with having to choose a new space, unapologetically choosing yourself first and going at your own pace.
We need new surroundings to discover ourselves, like searching in the ocean for something you can’t find on land.
It can mean, being distant to certain people in your life and having to deal with their reactions to that. And this fear of what could happen, whether it’s loosing those people or feeling even more lost in life, is holding you back. So you may crave change, but you’re too afraid of it. On days, where you feel like the fear is controlling your mind, you should try to focus on what the experience of taking care for yourself can teach you. Think about what you have to gain and see the strength and bravery in taking this choice.
Remember that growth isn’t meant to be comfortable.
Self Reflection 