When the morning comes, the sun releases it’s subtle light and I take a glance outside. My bare feet on the cold kitchen tile are keeping me awake. While I still feel a bit numb, I find comfort in sipping my cup of coffee, the first cup of gold. And before the rush I need a minute to be in touch, not with anybody else, but myself. I think, if I could just keep this peace throughout the day, though I know it won’t stay.
We‘re in a transformative state. It requires to be brave to search for clarity. This time is about understanding your situation, without being distracted by comparison, about becoming the person you want to be, but with patience. The journey you’re facing is not based on a competition or expectations, it is entirely up to you. It’s okay to put yourself first right now, although you’ve been taught differently. When you just follow the path, you‘ll get where you‘re going. Where the past doesn’t determine you, but adds to your life and you realise the potential you hold in the palm of your hands. That’s when you‘ll know what you’re capable of and how to use your strength. Trust the purpose of clarity, it‘ll guide you.
What if the words left unsaid should’ve been spoken instead, I understood their meaning and what they might could’ve changed. There were moments that needed pure honesty, though I remembered the outspoken truth once felt like bare skin. You could think whatever, because the past lays behind, but those same words still remain in my mind. Being written on paper doesn’t take them away anymore. Now I believe relying on the quiet, sometimes just isn’t enough and next time I won‘t let the fear make my mouth shut.
August made me think, while the old hold me back and the new barely brought me further in life. I still thought about what I want from people, although I didn’t know what to expect anymore. My heart already felt swollen by the feeling of uncertainty. But I’m no longer thinking about what I don’t have, instead of considering what I own inside. I now notice a love I carry that is yet to be fulfilled, meant to nurture my soul. Although most certainly I know the perception I have surrounding love, that emerged of the experiences other people have made before me, I know I’m deserving of real love. Everyone is.
I feel at peace when the rain falls down. I’m thinking of all the people saving themselves under their roofs, while nature is taking back it’s power. But I go outside, let the rain touch my skin, watching it from my window and taking in this precious, yet simple moment. I feel connected, because I know there are all those unknown people probably doing the same thing. We notice that when life feels draining sometimes, the rain makes us feel alive.
Daring poems are worth keeping in mind and being reminded of even on hard days. They are purposefully written to show a deeper meaning behind things and you have to think twice about them before truly understanding the meaning. They make you question things you never questioned before and you can relate to them on a different level. I want to write them.
We know that our actions speak for us, the way we behave and treat other people. While what we do is clearly visible, our intentions are hidden.
We may aren’t even sure about them ourselves. However, they can help shaping our lives, because everything begins with an intention. Every journey you go trough, purpose you follow and change you experience. And perhaps you don’t realise it at first, yet small choices like how you portray yourself on social media can reflect your intentions. At some point you might find yourself questioning:
Ask yourself if you feel proud about what you’re doing.
It doesn’t matter how serious the situation or decision is, when it comes to your mental health it’s important enough to care about.
Think about how you set your intentions and what impact they have on your life.
I’m tired of society always putting people into categories, just because they share superficial characteristics. They don’t even try to look beyond the borders of what they can see. It basically favours judgement, which can cause Prejudice, Discrimination and Stereotyping. So while we try to increase our self-esteem, we‘re constantly being put down by the idea of getting defined by one of those categories. We start questioning our own uniqueness and that shouldn’t happen.
Self Reflection 