Meeting new people

I once felt comfortable with the idea of me being different than people expect. Now that I’ve experienced what it means, my attitude towards meeting new people changed.

Not speaking openly about my struggles meant, that I sometimes felt overwhelmed when I met people for the first time. Accepting assumptions about me felt way easier than proving them wrong, though it wasn’t. I developed the fear I could break their trust in me when they realised I haven’t put enough trust in them, to tell what makes me vulnerable. It’s hard to show yourself vulnerable if you’re a sensitive person, but by now I’m convinced hiding hurts often as much as lying, even to yourself.

silent mornings

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When the morning comes, the sun releases it’s subtle light and I take a glance outside. My bare feet on the cold kitchen tile are keeping me awake. While I still feel a bit numb, I find comfort in sipping my cup of coffee, the first cup of gold. And before the rush I need a minute to be in touch, not with anybody else, but myself. I think, if I could just keep this peace throughout the day, though I know it won’t stay.

words left unsaid

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What if the words left unsaid should’ve been spoken instead, I understood their meaning and what they might could’ve changed. There were moments that needed pure honesty, though I remembered the outspoken truth once felt like bare skin. You could think whatever, because the past lays behind, but those same words still remain in my mind. Being written on paper doesn’t take them away anymore. Now I believe relying on the quiet, sometimes just isn’t enough and next time I won‘t let the fear make my mouth shut.

Deserving

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August made me think, while the old hold me back and the new barely brought me further in life. I still thought about what I want from people, although I didn’t know what to expect anymore. My heart already felt swollen by the feeling of uncertainty. But I’m no longer thinking about what I don’t have, instead of considering what I own inside. I now notice a love I carry that is yet to be fulfilled, meant to nurture my soul. Although most certainly I know the perception I have surrounding love, that emerged of the experiences other people have made before me, I know I’m deserving of real love. Everyone is.

Serenity

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When I think about serenity, I vision a flower growing. Nothing prevents her from growing and flourishing more secure over time. She grows roots so deep it’s hard to tear her apart, but when something does there’s still a part hidden in the ground, prepared to bloom again. The flower isn’t made to remain the same.

Our Intentions

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We know that our actions speak for us, the way we behave and treat other people. While what we do is clearly visible, our intentions are hidden.

We may aren’t even sure about them ourselves. However, they can help shaping our lives, because everything begins with an intention. Every journey you go trough, purpose you follow and change you experience. And perhaps you don’t realise it at first, yet small choices like how you portray yourself on social media can reflect your intentions. At some point you might find yourself questioning:

Why do I post about my relationship with someone on social media?
Is it to show other people that I’m a social person?
Do I feel pressure and the need to prove something?
Or does it simply come from a place of love & comfort in the relationship?

Ask yourself if you feel proud about what you’re doing.

It doesn’t matter how serious the situation or decision is, when it comes to your mental health it’s important enough to care about.

Think about how you set your intentions and what impact they have on your life.

judged by society

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I’m tired of society always putting people into categories, just because they share superficial characteristics. They don’t even try to look beyond the borders of what they can see. It basically favours judgement, which can cause Prejudice, Discrimination and Stereotyping. So while we try to increase our self-esteem, we‘re constantly being put down by the idea of getting defined by one of those categories. We start questioning our own uniqueness and that shouldn’t happen.

Freedom in Poetry

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There’s no right or wrong way in writing poetry, you just try to put into words what your mind tells you. Through taking pieces of your thoughts and collecting them on paper, you can visualise certain pictures. It kind of works like a puzzle, aside you’re the one deciding how to put the pieces together, deciding how you want to see the image. So we can use the power of our minds to influence our imagination.

Choosing Yourself

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Sometimes you might perceive an overwhelming amount of thoughts building up in your head. Your mind is absolute chaos, it seems confusing. That’s when you need some time to reflect, which goes a long way. Because it often comes with having to choose a new space, unapologetically choosing yourself first and going at your own pace.

We need new surroundings to discover ourselves, like searching in the ocean for something you can’t find on land.

It can mean, being distant to certain people in your life and having to deal with their reactions to that. And this fear of what could happen, whether it’s loosing those people or feeling even more lost in life, is holding you back. So you may crave change, but you’re too afraid of it. On days, where you feel like the fear is controlling your mind, you should try to focus on what the experience of taking care for yourself can teach you. Think about what you have to gain and see the strength and bravery in taking this choice.

Remember that growth isn’t meant to be comfortable.

People we look up to

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Did you ever thought about the deeper meaning behind admiring someone? Why you’re inspired to become a better person, just because of someone? I’m not only talking about a common role model, it can be anybody in your life.

The point is, the people we look up to, are people that we think deserve to be admired. We know to get in the same position as them, we would have to work as hard on ourselves. When we don’t know how people achieved something, we don’t know which way they had to go, we often underestimate them. Sometimes we’re just seeing what we want to. And I can’t tell you where this mindset comes from, but I realise we can work on how to change it. We’re able to better ourselves, through avoiding to jump to conclusions about people. Because being familiar with one small fraction of a persons life, is not a reason to do so.